Wow! How is it almost 2017? This past year went by so fast…
Yesterday I wrote a somewhat long, very honest and maybe a bit emotional post on my LinkedIn page and cannot believe all the positive feedback I am getting. Which by the way just gives me more courage to post like this so keep it coming!
I just needed to take a break to breathe so I did. I needed to GET OUT OF MY OWN HEAD if you will. Anxiety is the worst. And sometimes I have anxiety about having anxiety. I mean really! Who has time for this?
Today I can honestly say I woke up feeling a bit refreshed and got a lot done. And slowly but surely I am getting my mojo back. I NEED MY MOJO BACK!
Today has been a good day so far and I hope you are having a fantastic one as well. I have spent a lot of the day just recharging myself and taking deep breathes for everything coming up both health and career wise. Everyone must take time to breathe and recharge. It really makes such a big difference in your every day routine.
If you are interested in reading my post on LinkedIn I pasted it for you below.
Let me know what you think.
Now back to creating my new cork boards…
Until next time…
WHY I AM TAKING A TEN TO RECHARGE
Here I am sitting on my computer trying to get through my to-do list. I’m working at a pretty good pace (considering I’m only one coffee in) and I just got overwhelmed with anxiety. It’s the end of the month and I am usually in good spirits prepping for the next month. I have all my vision boards and work boards lined up. Just waiting to be loaded with content for December and I am just stuck. If you don’t know me by now I would just like to share with you that I am a very creative person. And have always been this way. I will have an idea and just run with it. Creating has never been a problem for me.
If you have been reading my posts over the last few months you are aware of my recent diagnosis of MS and yesterday I got more news. Without giving you ALL the details I will just say that my Doctor has ordered me to go to a physical therapy 3 times a week for the next 12 weeks to help with this new diagnosis plus all my drugs…
I have spent thousands of hours on my computer, tablet and phone doing as much research as possible. From early morning to late night hours. Even in the middle of the night when I cannot sleep. I try to stay as positive as I can. I try to stay away from Google but I don’t! And I know you wouldn’t either! It really is impossible. Throughout the last few months I have come across a number of people in my position as well as Twitter Chats, Facebook Groups and other online communities. This is where I go throughout the day for inspiration and motivation lately. However, everyone’s case is so different. Everyone has different pains but we have have one thing in common which is a chronic illness and we come together to keep each others spirits up. And I am so grateful that these exist.
There are quite a lot of people in these communities that choose not to tell anyone about their disease. No one at work, only a few friends and family etc. Some say it would hurt their career if they spoke up. Some think they would be fired.
I however am the opposite. I live online. My business is online and I use social media all day and night. I will never forget the day when I found out I had MS. I wrote a blog post a few hours later while screaming and sobbing. I had to get it out! Some say I should have kept it to myself because it could hurt my career and business. I had to tell the world. I wanted to know every single thing right then and there. Obviously I was scared but I wanted answers. Posting that day was MY only option. The best option for ME!
Later that night I was extremely overwhelmed because I received hundreds of texts, emails, calls, messages online and with so much information. More than I could even handle so I am glad I shared my story and continue to do so today. If there is just one person I am able to help I know I am doing something right. The more I talk about it the more I learn how common these types of diseases are. Everyone knows someone who knows someone etc.
As far as working goes I have good days and bad days just like anyone else. I am one of the most organized people you will meet in both my personal and professional life. I make sure to schedule out my week every Sunday. When I am sitting waiting for a doctor I am blogging, on social platforms, talking to clients etc. I don’t stop! This illness is not affecting my job and what I can handle! It is not preventing me from what I can do for a client and their business. I write everything down. It just means that I have to be more scheduled and that is a great trait to have!
I know when it is time to take a break now and I take one. Sometimes I even take a nap! I know I take naps now! lol The guilt of doing this is slowly going away because I know I need to do this for my health and of course sanity and to be the best at what I do!
Every now and then I feel this exhaustion settle in and I loose my creative flow and motivation. This is what is happening today. And by the way this can happen to anyone. It doesn’t mean my brain stopped working. It doesn’t mean I cannot handle the work of clients. It doesn’t mean I am incapable or working. It just means I need a minute to recharge. I have worked extremely hard my entire life! I have traveled the world doing so and now it is time for me to just take a ten so I can come back refreshed! Trust me I am the same hard working Kelly you know. I can promise you that!
I cannot even begin to tell you how hard it is being self employed. However, I chose this life. I choose not to have a full time job working for a big company. Yes, I have in the past but now it is my time to share all of that knowledge to help others. I know this is why I am here! This is where my Business and LinkedIn Coaching comes in. Some may say it doesn’t make the most sense given my circumstances now but I know in my heart that everything happens for a reason and no matter what I am never EVER going to give up. This is my journey and MY life and will just create more content for my future E! True Hollywood Story producers! Just kidding. See. I still have my humor….
Now…To sum this very long somewhat emotional post up…(Thanks for reading if you are still here) It is time for me to take a ten. AKA Ten minute break but more like the rest of the day to recharge and get my creativity back. I’m going to stay positive, productive, happy and healthy no matter what. Because I Must and Because I can!
I’m going to prep some healthy food and get to my vision boards and come back tomorrow December 1, 2016 stronger than ever because that is how I choose to finish my year! STRONG!
If you are still here thank you so much for taking the time to read my post today. It means so much you have no idea. And I love reading your comments and feedback. Please feel free to like and share my story if you know that it could inspire someone you know!
Until next time…